Sunday, September 30, 2012


Just spent an hour in a chair, alone, holding an old photo of me and my dad. I was only 7 in it, but I looked genuinely happy... I wanted so much to cry, but of course I can't tell that to anyone in my family because they're all convinced I hated him just because our dynamic was... screwed up I guess is the best term... Then I put it up, had a dizzy spell, knocked over a chair covered in stuff, and just about started crying then... but what's the point? It never makes any difference to me... I can't remember the last time I was really, truly happy... How messed up is that? If I could remember the rant I'd had going in my head during that hour, I'd share it... but I'm not sure it would really help one place my frame of mind...

Wednesday, September 19, 2012


I cannot believe I've neglected my blog for so long! My sister got me hooked on tumblr and ever since I've been completely Click-Happy about the whole thing.
I can't believe I haven't blogged here since before I left MI...

I left MI and went through Chicago, Omaha, Denver, Salt Lake City, Reno, Sacramento, Oakland, and Eureka before arriving... It was a long bus trip. I only wish I had the money to turn around and head home.
I love my sister, but I don't enjoy it here. For several reasons. Most of which involve ALL of my damned friends being BACK IN MICHIGAN thus draining me of a reason to live.

I've been listening to P!nk an awful lot lately. And Halestorm. Icon For Hire. Not that those are at all newsworthy events. *Sigh.*

Love you all,