invisible like shadows in a faded light...

ok then. halloween is yay. just have to keep telling myself that. except all my best buds are far away this year. it just won't be the same...

saturday

okay. saturday nyccie gave me 5 orgasms. don't worry, she gave herself a grand total of 3 orgasms. all on our way home from the store. family dollar can kiss my ass cuz the people who work there suck majorly. so fuck off to them. she got all the damned caffeine and i didn't get any. grrr. and after all that walking. got to hang out with killey though. and bailey blew up at nyccie and i out of nowhere for absolutely nothing. bitch is my friend but she can kiss my nether-regions for that one. mom left with someone and sis and liam to coldwater. her friend leisha came by. she rox. then Deann came by with the new baby. she is so cute!!!!! i think everyone i know has lost their minds. plus i'm on my period. oh the effing joys. not.... and i'm single and life blows.... i can't wait until halloween. yay, candy+orgasms+liquor= stripper bar thingy... yay to the fun.... ciao, Ri

ri ri says hi hi

it was a great day... until i woke up. then it was raining in 45* weather and i had to walk a mile to get to the internet. it sucked. i'm frozen and soaked through from it.
i have no service on my cell cuz of the weather. my friend had a baby so that's cool. but that's the only good thing. shout out to anyone who can figure out my favorite M-word. it isn't Monster or Mash btw. nor is it Mom... lol. no offense, ma.
i really need to get laid. excuse me while i scream....

ciao,
Ri

it's green today

people can be really effing retarded. how are you today? i hate when people feel the need to do things that are so goddamned stupid. anyways. i'm in a bad mood...

on to the homecoming game. we lost with zero points. our players fell like Dominoes and it was humiliating and BORING.
total waste of 5$....

my head is spinning and i'm tired and i want pepperoni pizza dammit.
lol.
much love, alae

Tennessee

asthma bites. i just had an attack so bad that i thought i was dying. all because i wanted to go for a bike ride. oh the joys... and my knee gave out so i couldn't really walk i had to sit in the middle of the street til my asthma was under control and i could force my knee to work.
i got here though. yay to the stubburn people.

i am never wearing a skirt or dress again cuz my own mother said i dressed skanky. gee thanks. and if these memory flashes don't stop happening i may very well go completely nuts.
someone help me cuz i just want to scream right now.

Nothing Feels Right

i am so sick of crying every night just to get to sleep. i'm tired of all these flashbacks going through my head at random. i hate reliving moments i'd rather just forget ever happened. i'm sick of it! i hate it i hate it i hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the only good thing i can say so far is that i got off last night thinking about 'him'... and that it started raining lightly. thank goddess...

Halloween is coming...

i can't wait. i even have the music for the party. u know, the IMPORTANT songs that actually make it feel like halloween? Monster Mash. Things that go bump in the night. Dragula. etc etc. i can't wait. free candy, dressing up, liquor. fun fun fun. HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SweetDreams-I love you (Count The Stars)

Reketa’s Song September 29th, 2008
I dream at night for you. I wish you were here again…
CHORUS:
Your smile would make my day.
Your words would lift me higher.
You said- that I was pretty.
You said- that I was sweet.
Yeah, you can be kind of heady.
It’s true; you knock me off my feet.
I dream at night for you. I count the stars… I fell in love with you. You count the stars.
Chorus x1
When it rains, you think of me. And I dream of the “us” we never had a chance to be. You call me, just to say “sweet dreams”. I smile when you say “sweet”. Cuz you told me once, a long time ago, that “sweet dreams” meant “I love you” from you to me…
Chorus x1
Together we count the stars and laugh.
But when we dance, and you say “sweet dreams”…
I know there’s still a chance, ya mean you love me.

Fantasy

Fantasy By: Alae McRae--- August 30th, 2008
I wish I could tell you
How I love you always.
But you know it’s true
That I’m eternally filled with uncertainties.
My heart aches for somethin’.
I don’t know exactly what it is.
I find every day, myself wishin’.
I want rain and sunshine,
I want an ocean storm.
To try and be more than “fine”.
And that special someone to keep me warm.
That special someone to keep me warm.
I stare at the TV,
Not really seeing the screen.
I remember that first day you kissed me.
Now it’s all just a dream.
A mere memory…
Lost to the stars and lights.
Lost to me.
I’ll never understand why we still fight.
Guess it was all just a fantasy.

Forgotten In Time

Forgotten In Time: Alae McRae: October 1st, 2008
Poor poor beautiful soul {x3}
Come find me. Poor poor beautiful soul, please see me.
Poor poor beautiful soul {x2}
Lost in the world. Poor poor beautiful soul forgotten in time.
Poor poor beautiful soul {x3}
Set me free. Poor poor beautiful soul, please free me.

Poor poor beautiful soul
Can’t you remember me?
Poor poor beautiful soul
Remember me. (x2)
Remember me in time.

the Write Guy

lol. ok. yes i'm talking about Doug. it's weird but ever since i met him i can't seem to stop writing stuff.
i keep hoping he'll get online today but i doubt he will. i want to tell him yes but by the time he gets online i'll probably be walking home.