January 14th, 2009
Wednesday
4:30 A.M.
Stupid Girl. At least I know i'm not a princess... and i don't believe in fairy tales. and that's kind of sad when you stop and think about it. i want to have faith in people. but after my life, i don't think i ever will be able to...
i've been in love with the same guy since i was 16... but do to distance, it wasn't gonna last. and then he fell back into his depression. so now i'm worried.
it's not like i didn't try to fall out of it... or like i didn't date other people. but damn if i'm not still in love with Superman. Shut up, it's the nickname i gave him. to tell that truth my favorite comic book hero was definitely BatMan... still is actually. and if i had to pick a villain, it'd be The Joker. not just cuz he's funny and insane, or cuz Heath Ledger portrayed him so extremely well, but seriously. He is definitely the most awesome villain.
but my point is i did date other people. including the guy i went to snocoming with. now that was boring. the guy was an idiot, and i am never being nice to anyone again by dating them. i mean, he showed up stoned out of his mind and he didn't even know what the drug was he was on at the time. can u say Fuck it?!
quite frankly, boys around here suck. yes, boys. cuz i've yet to meet someone here who has any chance of being labeled a "man" ya know? they are all so immature and rotten that it's hard to say what people see in them.
even though i don't believe in fairy tales and all that, i still dream of a White Knight and all that. though i prefer someone with a spine and tattoos instead. or at least someone who likes poetry. yeah i know, it will never happen.
has anyone ever heard that song White Horse by Taylor Swift? i think it says it all. really what else is there to say????
though i do catch myself fantasizing still that maybe my Superman will come and save me and take me away from all this... someplace safe and happy. but that will never happen i guess. i mean, for all i know he's in the psych ward again. not that i love him any less for it if he is.
how i can still be in love with him after all this time is beyond me.
but i can honestly say i still miss him...
Talking to the wind and sky,
Alae... {Is still leaving her window open so prince charming can climb the tower to save her...}
