Monday, December 22, 2008

Yay for Updates

??? computer is being stupid. i got an ipod and cellphone for solstice. yay. and a necklace and tinkerbell box. i've posted a bunch of new pix on my myspace...
should update my other things...

love u all.
happy holidays.


Weird... .

yay for coca cola! mix it with pb/choc orgasms and the world is all good... my sister and nyccie just went to the Family Dollar to get mandy more mins for her celly... i had the weirdest, most illogical dream last night. it included a party at andie's... pictures from prom where i went with nyccie, and her boyfriend, and their friend "wolfy" which he hates to be called. it kinda freaked me out... i was wearing pink, which is weird... but i look good in it so whatever. and i was "Wolfy's" date... weird. plus i had dyed my hair black. something i already have decided never to do again. anyways, in my dream, nyccie was showing everyone the pix at andie's party. then... magically it's six hours later and she's giving her boyfriend directions to andie's house so we can go home cuz i'm having an emotional break down cuz andie's frigging husband's brother was creeping me out... long story short, i woke up when the car rolled up.... now i personally think this dream is weird. but hey, i've had stranger dreams than this one. anyways, i'm thinking about getting my hair dyed... black. even though i generally look like Wednesday when i do that... or my mother. plus i want a RED dress for prom if i do decide to go with nyccie like she originally wanted me to do. either way i have a black dress waiting for snocoming for when nyccie and i go with amanda and jessica at the high school. i cannot believe it's been a year and a half since i graduated.... weird. time goes by so fast... time to bounce cuz i don't have anything left to say at the moment...


Monday, December 15, 2008

very little time

i don't have a lot of time to say this so i'm just gonna say it. men suck. no offense...
i'd say more but someone else needs the comp...
have a happy holiday, whatever it may be...


very little time

i don't have a lot of time to say this so i'm just gonna say it. men suck. no offense...
i'd say more but someone else needs the comp...
have a happy holiday, whatever it may be...



guys think they're all that and it can really get on your nerves after a while... you know? and just cuz i don't give it up after 1 or 2 dates i am apparently a tease. screw that. i'm just not easy. get over it. right? i mean. if i'm gonna give it up, it has to be to a guy who likes a challenge. cuz i love a challenge. they're exciting.
my sister is going to be great tonite at the play she's in. it starts at 7... ugh and she has to walk there. it's a mile and it's snowing out as if it wasn't already cold enough out as it is. saturdays rock. point is. she'll be great. even if she is kinda, okay definitely, shaky on her lines.
she'll do great. and we all know it. even if the Director is a fucking whore-loving bitch who is full of herself to the point that i'd rather share company with all of my ex boyfriends in one room than just her. it'd be a lot less aggravating...

alae ri rae ren


guys think they're all that and it can really get on your nerves after a while... you know? and just cuz i don't give it up after 1 or 2 dates i am apparently a tease. screw that. i'm just not easy. get over it. right? i mean. if i'm gonna give it up, it has to be to a guy who likes a challenge. cuz i love a challenge. they're exciting.
my sister is going to be great tonite at the play she's in. it starts at 7... ugh and she has to walk there. it's a mile and it's snowing out as if it wasn't already cold enough out as it is. saturdays rock. point is. she'll be great. even if she is kinda, okay definitely, shaky on her lines.
she'll do great. and we all know it. even if the Director is a fucking whore-loving bitch who is full of herself to the point that i'd rather share company with all of my ex boyfriends in one room than just her. it'd be a lot less aggravating...

alae ri rae ren

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Dear Editor (my unsent letter)

I was devastated to hear that Hensley's Variety Store is in the process of closing its doors. I have memories of shopping there dating back to when I was still in kindergarten. So I really cannot understand why it is so difficult for people to be loyal to their hometown. Would it really be so bad to pay an extra five or ten cents on something? People feel much more comfortable shopping at the Variety Store than at Family Dollar or someplace out of town. But because it is cheaper at a different location, they would rather be uncomfortable and save a little bit of cash. I suppose it wouldn't be so bad if they only did this on the absolute essentials. However, when it comes to certain other items, such as jewelry or writing utensils, it is incomprehensible as to why people cannot go the extra mile to save their beloved town. If this kind of behavior continues we may very well soon be out of even more stores, restaurants, and the like. If we do not address this issue with action from the people, the closing of this store could very likely inadvertently start a domino effect on the rest of our local economy. Shopping locally, just twice a week, could make a big difference on our entire community if we all tried.

Union City

Friday, November 7, 2008


okay so i'm tired as hell. my head is splinning... (splitting and spinning morons!) i feel like shit and everything blows. danielle and mark have been together for exactly a year and a half. go them. shut up. every body is perfectly happy. life sux. how are u? i mean, i'm great and everything is all rainbows and sunshine!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

invisible like shadows in a faded light...

ok then. halloween is yay. just have to keep telling myself that. except all my best buds are far away this year. it just won't be the same...

Monday, October 27, 2008


okay. saturday nyccie gave me 5 orgasms. don't worry, she gave herself a grand total of 3 orgasms. all on our way home from the store. family dollar can kiss my ass cuz the people who work there suck majorly. so fuck off to them. she got all the damned caffeine and i didn't get any. grrr. and after all that walking. got to hang out with killey though. and bailey blew up at nyccie and i out of nowhere for absolutely nothing. bitch is my friend but she can kiss my nether-regions for that one. mom left with someone and sis and liam to coldwater. her friend leisha came by. she rox. then Deann came by with the new baby. she is so cute!!!!! i think everyone i know has lost their minds. plus i'm on my period. oh the effing joys. not.... and i'm single and life blows.... i can't wait until halloween. yay, candy+orgasms+liquor= stripper bar thingy... yay to the fun.... ciao, Ri

Friday, October 24, 2008

ri ri says hi hi

it was a great day... until i woke up. then it was raining in 45* weather and i had to walk a mile to get to the internet. it sucked. i'm frozen and soaked through from it.
i have no service on my cell cuz of the weather. my friend had a baby so that's cool. but that's the only good thing. shout out to anyone who can figure out my favorite M-word. it isn't Monster or Mash btw. nor is it Mom... lol. no offense, ma.
i really need to get laid. excuse me while i scream....


Wednesday, October 22, 2008

it's green today

people can be really effing retarded. how are you today? i hate when people feel the need to do things that are so goddamned stupid. anyways. i'm in a bad mood...

on to the homecoming game. we lost with zero points. our players fell like Dominoes and it was humiliating and BORING.
total waste of 5$....

my head is spinning and i'm tired and i want pepperoni pizza dammit.
much love, alae

Monday, October 13, 2008


asthma bites. i just had an attack so bad that i thought i was dying. all because i wanted to go for a bike ride. oh the joys... and my knee gave out so i couldn't really walk i had to sit in the middle of the street til my asthma was under control and i could force my knee to work.
i got here though. yay to the stubburn people.

i am never wearing a skirt or dress again cuz my own mother said i dressed skanky. gee thanks. and if these memory flashes don't stop happening i may very well go completely nuts.
someone help me cuz i just want to scream right now.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Nothing Feels Right

i am so sick of crying every night just to get to sleep. i'm tired of all these flashbacks going through my head at random. i hate reliving moments i'd rather just forget ever happened. i'm sick of it! i hate it i hate it i hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the only good thing i can say so far is that i got off last night thinking about 'him'... and that it started raining lightly. thank goddess...

Monday, October 6, 2008

Halloween is coming...

i can't wait. i even have the music for the party. u know, the IMPORTANT songs that actually make it feel like halloween? Monster Mash. Things that go bump in the night. Dragula. etc etc. i can't wait. free candy, dressing up, liquor. fun fun fun. HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

SweetDreams-I love you (Count The Stars)

Reketa’s Song September 29th, 2008
I dream at night for you. I wish you were here again…
Your smile would make my day.
Your words would lift me higher.
You said- that I was pretty.
You said- that I was sweet.
Yeah, you can be kind of heady.
It’s true; you knock me off my feet.
I dream at night for you. I count the stars… I fell in love with you. You count the stars.
Chorus x1
When it rains, you think of me. And I dream of the “us” we never had a chance to be. You call me, just to say “sweet dreams”. I smile when you say “sweet”. Cuz you told me once, a long time ago, that “sweet dreams” meant “I love you” from you to me…
Chorus x1
Together we count the stars and laugh.
But when we dance, and you say “sweet dreams”…
I know there’s still a chance, ya mean you love me.


Fantasy By: Alae McRae--- August 30th, 2008
I wish I could tell you
How I love you always.
But you know it’s true
That I’m eternally filled with uncertainties.
My heart aches for somethin’.
I don’t know exactly what it is.
I find every day, myself wishin’.
I want rain and sunshine,
I want an ocean storm.
To try and be more than “fine”.
And that special someone to keep me warm.
That special someone to keep me warm.
I stare at the TV,
Not really seeing the screen.
I remember that first day you kissed me.
Now it’s all just a dream.
A mere memory…
Lost to the stars and lights.
Lost to me.
I’ll never understand why we still fight.
Guess it was all just a fantasy.

Forgotten In Time

Forgotten In Time: Alae McRae: October 1st, 2008
Poor poor beautiful soul {x3}
Come find me. Poor poor beautiful soul, please see me.
Poor poor beautiful soul {x2}
Lost in the world. Poor poor beautiful soul forgotten in time.
Poor poor beautiful soul {x3}
Set me free. Poor poor beautiful soul, please free me.

Poor poor beautiful soul
Can’t you remember me?
Poor poor beautiful soul
Remember me. (x2)
Remember me in time.

the Write Guy

lol. ok. yes i'm talking about Doug. it's weird but ever since i met him i can't seem to stop writing stuff.
i keep hoping he'll get online today but i doubt he will. i want to tell him yes but by the time he gets online i'll probably be walking home.

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Counting The Stars

his name is doug and he's amazing. i'd say more but i don't have time.
u know he'll never know this but that's cuz i protect my emotions bigtime.

all i can say is that he makes me smile. that should say it all...


Saturday, September 27, 2008

Princes & Frogs

first off, that is a great song by Superchic{k}

secondly. i love it.

now. on to business, the important things. like what i want for winter solstice. lol.

New Stereo so i can listen to the radio, cds, and my cassettes.
MP3 player
Katy Perry CD
New Pink CD
New Taylor Swift CD
DEVOUR (movie with jensen ackles in it)

that's about it.
lol. i'm so pathetic i know.....

Monday, September 15, 2008

Na na na

Shontelle Lyrics
T-shirt Lyrics

Hey everyone. It is 64* outside. You want a coat but then you’re too hot. So it’s all messed up. It finally stopped raining after 5 days of it. Generally I like rain. But I’ve been sick on and off lately. Finally got over my sore throat only to get stomach cramps from hell. Well, actually we don’t know what they were. At one point my parents wanted to take me to the hospital because they thought I had appendicitis. Or however you spell that. Don’t worry, I don’t. If I did I would probably be dead by now. So I walked here after taking a shower. Really dumb thing to do. All things considered.

And after all this b/s. I get to go hang out with 212* at the HS zombie prison. Just to get a part as a stuck up bitch or a dummy who loves world peace. Either way, they’re easy parts. I don’t even need to speculate anything. It gets boring that way. Plus it’s always a play/musical that no one has ever heard of so they don’t want to see it, or they have heard of it and go “oh god please no WHY?!” when they find out we’re performing it. What is wrong with all these people?


Na Na by Superchick:
You're running a case against me,
Prosector judge and jury,
We´ve had this conversation in your head,
´cause I wasn´t there,you made up what I said,
Or what I would have said,you know me so well,
you heard how I am and how I'm going to heaven knows,
We´ve never had this conversation,or should I be calling it a condemnation,
´cause you're not listening to me.

So na na na na na,
That´s all I´m gonna say,
´Cause na na na na na,
Made up your mind any way,
na na na na na,
There´s nothing I can do,
so na na na na na,
Couldn´t we be friends if not for you.

I feel like a teacher from Charlie Brown,
All you hear is that wa-wa-wa sound,
Maybe I´m a pokemon, Pikachu,
´cause that what comes out when I´m talking to you,
You're a crusader you´ve made up your fight,
Your Super-hero name is Mr. Right,
Instead of trying to understand,
You show all your friends how wrong I am,
And you´re still not listening to me.


Can´t we be friends,
Why does it end,
Before a word is even heard,
I look at you your attitude,
Why can´t you see,
That it´s not me.

Oops I did it again, I see,
The person I´m talking about is me,
Assuming you the enemy,
In the cross hairs of my verbal uzi,
No matter who wins we both lose,
No matter who starts we both choose,
To keep it going on and on and on and on and on,
But lets start listening and see.

La la la la la,
La la la la la,
Sorry that it got this way,
La la la la la,
Next time I wont let it stew,
La la la la la,
Couldn´t we start over me and you?

Friday, September 12, 2008


oh my god he is so... yummy. okay. so you have no clue who i'm talking about? well i'm totally in love with Justin Long. okay. i know. it isn't really love, just a major crush since i have NEVER actually met the guy. but so not my point. and who cares if he's 11 years older than i am? go look at him. besides, anyone who can make me laugh that much. already got kudos from me. and don't say it's the script guys. cuz u need to be able to pull it off to make it funny, too ya know.

anyways... so i'm a tad into him. okay more than a tad but it's unrealistic so who cares? i mean, i may have a chance of meating him if i ever become the famous singer we all know i'm meant to become, but still. (my music is meant for the world cuz i rock...i'm awsome...) sha la la la la la. kiss me baby. no anyways...

my oh my. i finally made CapeBoy his myspace. he just needs to verify it. hope he enjoys. and he better appreciate my "hard work".

i came down with a sore throat yesterday. my sister got it too. i'm guessing it's cuz we keep going from a hot room to cold outside and vice versa. wouldn't be too surprising. it's 73* outside and i'm wearing a hoodie cuz of the rain and my sore throat.

First pic is for his movie Accepted, obviously. The 2nd pic is from Jeepers Creepers. And he is with my mom's boyfriend. That's right, my mom has a crush on The Creeper. I think it proves she has a psychosis but what do I know? Well it's time to go home and drink soda and check the mail. etc etc. have a great weekend everyone!

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

sha la la la

80's style

someone i can trust

go on and... kiss the girl and hold her hand

now's your moment

ur gonna miss the girl

go on and kiss the girl...

don't try to hide it how u wanna kiss the girl.

no time will be better

Contemplating Suicide

last night was awful. i was crying until just after midnight you know. my sister was being bitchy cuz she didn't get her way. this whole thing started over subtitles if you can believe it... mandy and i argued. mom got into it. i get blamed for every horrible thing that's ever happened so it isn't a shock. then i cried so badly i couldn't breathe and i am still contemplating suicide. wishing i could get the gutts to just do it. but matt said not to and *poked* me online. lol.

you already have what i've got to give. so lets just call it quits. it's just like me to say all of the wrong things that's why i say but what does it take did another girl come make u feel the way i could...
what does it take? anytime u realize that you never really mean what you say.

everyone is such a hypocrite. life bites. does anyone even really want me around? at all?

Monday, September 8, 2008

She Don't Got A Lot To Say

my oh my looks like the boy's too shy
you're gonna miss the girl...
go on and kiss the girl.
now's your moment.
boy you'd better do it soon. no time will be better.
she won't say a word until u kiss the girl.
ain't that sad it's such a shame too bad you're gonna miss the girl.
u gotta be prepared go on and kiss the girl.
u wanna kiss the girl.

Girls don't talk about their feelings to their boyfriends for a reason.
They just don't listen and then you feel out-of-season.
Ask her every once in a while
about her day.
go the extra mile
to make her stay.
give her a kiss and tell her u miss her.
that u never stop thinking about her.
don't let her get away.
kiss the girl and make her day.
if she loves u like u love her she will stay.
you don't know why
you want her, it's true.
but go and try,
she loves you too.
don't be shy, don't be bad.
don't lie to her or you'll later be sad.
take the moment and make it happen.
there is no "right moment" until you make it the right one.
don't be shy, don't be scared... kiss the girl in the sun.
or underneath the moon and stars.
it doesn't matter when or where you are...
if you love her... kiss the girl.
i guarantee you, it'll change your whole world.
Don't Miss The Girl...

Kiss The Girl

Looks like the boy's too shy, ain't gonna kiss the girl...
what a pity. the things he'll never know.
missed out on a whole new world.
man he's gonna be low.

she went and got someone else.
a sweet man.
she kisses but never tells.
cuz she still loves her old boyfriend.

gotta kiss the girl... while u can.
before you become the old boyfriend.
and before she gets a new man.
don't let the fairy tale end.


Saturday Night:
Went to the Lion's Den.
That's right, Nyccie and I went shopping with our Mothers at the lion's den.

Gas: 6$
Magnets: 8$
Porn: 15$
Nyccie's Expression@The Dildos...: PriceLess...

Friday, August 29, 2008

i have to go

okay sorry this is so short but i need to log off. check out my myspace...


Complaints Of An Ordinary Scale

I am beyond tired at this point. I don’t even know what the hell I’m doing here. The internet is down. And I didn’t think to bring my disks and see if I could update my stories. I feel beyond retarded right now. Oh look it’s a blue font! Isn’t it cool? Yeah, you can tell that I need drugs, huh? I feel like I’m about to pass out on the keyboard. I miss my friends and I wish that there was something to do around here. Maybe I should just go home and watch The Craft. It isn’t like I haven’t seen it a thousand times already. I hope the internet comes back online soon so that I can check my MySpace. I miss talking to Daniel. Besides, I need to tell everyone that my cell is going to be off for a while since I’m so extremely low on time for it. So unless someone’s going to give me about 10$ to get more time… well, we can talk later I suppose. I suppose that I could just mail the letters I’ve written to Danielle. But that would mean walking all the way home again. Oh effin’ joy. Okay I have no clue if the world is actually going to get this blog or not so I may very well be wasting my time. Anyways, it isn’t like anybody reads my blog so who cares right? Oh look, it’s purple! Does anyone even want me to finish my Loserville story?? Or do they just not need to know the ending? Whatever. If anybody actually wants to read some of my finished stories (which are REALLY good) just send me your email address. Or a PO-Box. Whichever is easier for you? Point is, I have some really good stories. In fact, the hard copies of several of them are still being passed around between my friends. To be honest, I’m not sure I’m ever going to get them back. Lol! Yeah I know that this looks like a rainbow and that I do this a lot but I like colors. Besides, it keeps me awake. I mean, it’s not even noon yet and I’ve been up since about 8:30 in the morning. Not fun for a night-owl. I have a headache from hell. It sucks. Great News Everybody! Amanda has agreed to save this for me so that you all can actually read this. YAY! Anyways I’m completely losing my mind. Yeah, I realize I use the term “anyways” a lot. Get over it. I don’t care if you like it or not. I realize also that I can be annoying. Who cares? Oh my goddess, this is really messing with my head. The screen, I mean. The lines and everything. Whoa. Did Juno possess my Word Document? Lol. Just kidding… this is an abnormal blog entry, I think. Oh man I really need to update my deviant art online. Or at least log on. It’s been awhile since I bothered you know. My head is spinning and I feel like I am sick but hey. I’m still here appeasing my readers. What a laugh. It’s almost 11:30 and I’ve been at this for over an hour. Talk about short, right? But the stupid internet is still down. It’s ridiculous. Seriously, no joke. It should be online by now. I’m slowly losing my mind. I may very well actually post this on my official blog instead of just on MySpace. You know? I haven’t done that in a while and apparently they miss me. Who knew? Damn I need something to do. I still need to do up my résumé’. But I don’t really remember how to format it so… anyways. I hope I get a job soon. I need the money in order to move out. I hate this all you know. I hate this town. I hate being stuck here. I hate having no way to college. The whole thing is just a BUST… I should get my meds refilled. But I keep forgetting to go over to the pharmacy. I can be so stupid sometimes. Fatigue is a bitch. And I mean that royally. I can barely keep my eyes open yet I know I received plenty of sleep last night. This is such a joke. I mean it. I hate this so much. I should have ate something before I left. The stupid internet is still down. Grrr! I wish I had a home phone. Then I could talk to Danielle. Yes I still miss her. Get over it. I’ve been friends with her practically my whole life. And since she hates the color pink… Lol. Just teasing Danielle. It’s just too easy. Don’t suppose anyone knows a way I could go to New York? Yeah right. I can’t even get to Battle Creek and that’s about 20 miles north of here. Anyways. I’m losing my mind. Maybe I should type up a letter to Danielle later. At least she’d be able to read it then. My penmanship isn’t exactly nice you know. Lol. My eyes hurt. And they’re dry. Dammed I should have brought my eye drops. I am sure these color changes don’t help any. Lol. Too bad I guess. Anyways. It’s almost noon. Oh the joy! I’m running out of things to babble about. Oh wait. One more thing! My younger brother turns 12 next Tuesday! Nyccie, my friend Nicole, she turns 19 on the same day. Plus, to everyone’s discontent (except mine), everyone starts school that same day. Wow. I managed to type this up in my little sister’s 3 favorite colors. Lol. How sweet is that? I am so out of it right now. It sucks to be a girl sometimes. But on the upside, females are the more intelligent gender. Lol. Just teasing. We’re all equal… blah blah blah.

August 29th, 2008 at 11: 47 A.M. By: Alae McRae